here we go...

i weighed myself this morning... i decided it was time to know what the number was... i'm not happy about it.  looks like my goal weight is about 155lbs from where i'm at now :( i would settle for 145lbs lost but lets be honest if i work hard enough to lose 145lbs i can lose that last 10.

weighing myself is always so bittersweet.  even when i'm at the top of my weight it is relieving to know what it is, and that its not really any higher than i thought it was.  at the same time it verifys that i've been snacking and treating WAY TOO MUCH and i have a lot of work to do.

so i've been reading a book called Finally Thin by Kim Bensen - she lost 212 pounds in two years.  There are recipes and such in it, but the book is meant to be a motivational piece, which is exactly what i am in need of.  anyway - she spends one chapter talking about making plans for yourself.  she explained that while having a goal weight and some other long term goals are important it is equally if not more so important to have goals that are more present.  she says that goals need to be measurable and something that is reasonably achievable so that you aren't setting yourself up for failure.  so here are my goals for the rest of this week (through saturday):

1. Eat 5 times a day: that is breakfast, lunch, dinner, and two snack in between.  If I am only hungry for four times that is ok, but not less than 4 times a day (when dieting I tend to go from overeating to undereating and neither of those is good).

2. I will do my 10 pushups every other day - as instructed by my fitness trainer aunt.

3. Tuesday and Thursday I will intentionally exercise - workout video, long walk/run etc.

4. Wednesday and Friday sweat doing something active but not a "workout".  Friday I'm helping my sister move so that shouldn't be a problem.

5. Finish doing laundry and cleaning up the stuff that needs doing by Friday AM <-- i've been putting this one off for a LONG time.

Ok so those are my goals - i'll check in the rest of the week to report how i'm doing.  Notice I didn't write that I was going to diet super hard or stay on a specific plan.  I'm just going to see how all this goes.  This weekend is Memorial Day and I might be going out of town with my boyfriend which would provide the perfect reason to make excuses about diet and exercise; i'm not going to do that to prove to myself i don't need to.  Ok, off to make breakfast and plan the rest of the day.